Let them run and eat cake

remember me? I have been a sh@#$y blogger and I am sorry. I haven’t had a whole lot to say I guess. Or maybe I should say I haven’t felt like sharing.  I have had a lot going on this year.  Some good some bad.  I haven’t done well on the weight loss front.  I can’t get back into it.  I have had trouble getting myself mentally back in the game.

Long and short of it at the beginning of the year I found out I was pregnant. Yay! I couldn’t exercise because it made me nauseated. I gained weight. In March I had a miscarriage and I gained weight.  At first I jumped back into exercise because it made me feel good.  I tried to do to much to fast and I ended up hurting myself over and over again.  Quite frankly I am not doing as well mentally as I let people think I am. I am still sad and I still want to cry.  I know I need to cut myself some slack here but I can’t do that.  I don’t know why.  I know my body has been through a lot this year but I know where I was 2 years ago.  I had lost 93 pounds and now I have gained like 30 if not more. I refuse to get on the scale.

I don’t know how to get me back.  I miss the old me.  I know I’m not going to ever be the same but I need to stop dealing with it all by eating whatever. That just makes me even more upset really.  I don’t expect anyone to give me answers because honestly it’s something I need to work through but I just wanted to get it out there.  Maybe this is the first step.

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Hello everyone.  I hope you are having a great day.  I ran 5 miles on Sunday and did the elliptical for 32 minutes yesterday. I’m not sure whats on tap for tonight. I hope running but it depends on how DH feels.  If he is still feeling bad I will just stay home and take care of Emily and do a dvd after she goes to bed.

In other news I went to the doctor for a blood draw this morning. I am having my vitamin D, B-12 and thyroid checked. I hope to have the results by Friday.  It seems vitamin B-12 deficiency runs on my mom’s side of the family. My mom, uncle, aunt and grandma all have to take shots. Mom and my uncle have to take 2 a month so it’s good info to have.  I have been feeling very fatigued for a long time and have had headache issues as well.  Hopefully something will come of it all.

I hope you all have a great day. Just about a week and half to the Run the Bluegrass Half and 5k! I am only doing the 5k but it’s my first race in a really long time.

I haven’t  blogged in a long time.  Sorry I haven’t had much exciting on my mind to put down on screen.  The past couple weeks have been pretty difficult.  I had a miscarriage and it has been very hard on me emotionally.  It took us 7 months to get pregnant and to lose that baby was a surprise.  I had no clue there was a problem.  I just went in for my first appointment at 9w 1d and things were off.  Went back 5 day later and things were worse.

The things that have kept me going.  My beautiful 2 1/2 year old Emily.  She doesn’t let you dwell on things for long. She has been the best medicine.  My supportive loving husband.  Without Casey I would be lost.  Wonderful friends you have been there for me. Lastly I threw myself back into a workout routine.  That has helped a lot.  The running and other workouts have made me feel normal.  Even if it is temporary it’s been incredibly helpful.

Before I new I was pregnant I had signed up to run a half marathon on June 4th.  Well I had decided not to run it since I would have been 2o+ weeks at that point and working out in general made me want to throw up.  Well now I am going to run it in honor of my lost little angel cake.   I am signed up to run on a team and our team name is cupcake chasers 2.  We all gave ourselves cupcake names and mine was Cherry Bomb but I have decided to be Angel Cake instead.  I might not run it fast and I may have to walk part of it but I will finish it for my baby.

Miss and love  you very much my Angel.

Sorry to have been gone so long but I had some other issues going on.  Any way last night was my last night with my trainer : ( and the session wasn’t my best because of a stupid cold.  I still pushed and worked hard.  I have lost 2% body fat in the last 4 weeks as well as an inch off of all my measurements except my bicep which I gained an inch.  That all makes me happy.

That pretty much sums it up. My workout today was blah.  I have a headache and my nose still hurts where Emily head butted me in the nose yesterday.  Hopefully tomorrows run goes better.

I had a great workout today.  I did an 8 minute warm up on the Arc did my super set weights and extra weight machine.  After that I did some abs and pushups.  Finished up with rowing a mile.  It felt great!  Tomorrow I am hoping for a nice long run.  I hope you all have a wonderful day and weekend.

Good morning.  Last night was another great workout with Wade.  We did kickboxing and some boot camp style exercises.  Tonight will be a run if my knee is feeling up to it.  Other than that not much exciting to say.

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